Reply To: Emma + Baelfire = Swanfire

Feeling at little ranty over on Tumblr this morning (I’m also sleepy, and annoyed that I can’t fic chat with people, because I need to fic chat right now):

So let me get this straight, I’m a hater because I have the nerve to look at a story that I loved and instead of being willing to blindly overlook it’s (continually increasing) faults, I want to look at it critically, point out the flaws and ask it to be better? If I really hated something I would walk away and remove it from my life completely.

The fact that I’m still around, still writing metas and fanfics is the exact reason that I AM NOT a hater. The fact that I can’t seem to remove this show from my life, even though I know it’s just going to continue to break my heart is because I love it too damn much for my own good. I don’t hate it. I hate parts of it. I hate what it makes me feel. I hate where the story is probably going. I hate that in the beginning it was the perfect mix of action, adventure, fantasy, romance, emotion and heart, and now it’s only a shell of it’s former self. I hate that I KNOW what it has the potential of being, and it’s content to just play to the lowest common denominator now, instead of digging deep like it used to. Sometimes it does, but not often anymore, and when it does it is often forgotten.

I hate all of these things, and maybe that makes it seem like I just hate everything, but I don’t. I love the heart the show can have. I love the fantasy world they’ve created, and the characters that I feel compelled to play with in fanfiction. I love that this show has made me think critically about relationships, both what I want out of them and what I don’t. I love the friendships I’ve made through this show. I love the inside jokes we’ve created because of it. Not matter how I may want to, I can’t hate something that has brought all this to my life. So interpret my desire to look critically at what was once my favourite show however you want, but then look at yourself and ask why you’re so offended because I don’t see things like you do.

I’m not a hater. So get off your high horse and stop hating on me.

http://textbookone.tumblr.com/post/87595638896/so-let-me-get-this-straight-im-a-hater-because-i