I know that a messed-up character’s beliefs don’t necessarily reflect the showrunners’ beliefs, nor that they’re meant to be taken as instruction for the audience, but it just tears my heart apart every time someone talks about a death wish as the ultimate expression of love.
We love people, and they die. It breaks us. We go on (for a while) and learn to cope (somewhat). We don’t have to seek our own death, because that’s inevitable, and making it happen early would just pass on our pain to others.