Seriously the whole conflict with CS and SF and their fans has seriously has almost permanently ruined my enjoyment of shipping. Now I sometimes am too scared of openly saying what I shipped aloud in fear of backlash, especially if the pairing I shipped is not-canon, not the top favorite pairing or at least the ship was sank by Word of God. I also feel like the need to warn other people in order to spare them of the backlash which go well as one would expected. I sometimes wish I have a better control over how I feel and think sometimes.