@rumplegoldfan Happy anniversary! I wish you both to have a very long, happy life full of love!
To answer your survey:
I was 16 when I first had my first boyfriend. I always had this idea that ” I want my first BF to be my last and everlasting love” HAHAHA…
So, when I had my first BF, i had this idealistic POV and when it all went spiraling down, I was so devastated and felt like ” I CANT LOVE AGAIN EVER!” ( gives me the goosebumps when I remember it, the bad kind of goosbumps LOL)
After 3 years. I had a second BF and AGAIN, I thought to myself ” He’s my LAST and would bemy one and only” , but even though I had him, I was crushing on some friend I have ( who totally looks like Ryan Gosling LOL). So we broke up, took me almost a year to move on and had several flings/dates after that.
I am turning 27 next year, I am in a long term relationship with a great guy now. I am being realistic this time around and not an idealist like I was before.
Looking back, I know that even if I do meet those guys again, especially my first love, or even that Ryan Gosling-look-alike, I wouldn’t love them like I used to. They aren’t even special in any kind of way anymore hahaha…
I’m a different person now and the person who used to believe in FIRST LOVE=TRUE LOVE is DEAD. lol.
See, that’s why I can’t wrap my head around First love = true love thing. Cause even if I did love my first love genuinely, I knew it WASN’T TRUE LOVE.