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Schmacky deleted (or semi-deleted) her blog. @KFChimera deleted her Twitter and I haven’t seen/heard from her since Saturday. *sigh*

I hope KFC is all right. If anyone hears from her, please let us know because I’m definitely concerned about her. I think Schmacky actually changed her username on Tumlbr because I’ve seen a few posts over there that I swear are from her but the name is totally different. Personally I think she’s really upset about this episode and just hasn’t been able to write about it yet.

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I love all the support for MRJ guys. He deserves it and honestly, I find myself wondering about how he really feels about the show right now too. He was always so positive and he did tweet a lot of great things throughout the series, but they really did drop the ball on him somewhere in the middle of S3. No way was this planned right from the start of S3 and I am STILL bitter that only Sean tweeted anything to MRJ about him leaving the show. Seriously!? If they’re all such great friends, some of them better say something to him soon or else the rumor mill will start up again.

Meh. I’m finally really detaching myself emotionally from this show and I really am finding my jaded side in all this now. And I’ve also decided that I’m not changing any of my icons or signatures here. I want to remember all the good times for Emma & Neal and let those images be the ones I hold onto from now on. They’ve always had a special story and in my mind, it ends happy with them finding Tallahassee together.

And I actually have a headache today. I think I’m more emotionally spent today than I was yesterday because it’s been two days of on and off tears and those always give me a headache. Ibuprofin here I come…

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And @Artseediva wins the award for the BEST.POST.OF.THE.YEAR!!!!!!!! I LOVE it!! *throws cookies at you* 😀

 

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We know Emma isn’t getting rid of that necklace because she still has it on several episodes later which we saw in a picture that Ginny tweeted during her OUAT countdown a while back. If Emma can keep that darn shoelace around her arm for all this time in mourning for Graham, then she DARN WELL better keep that necklace she got from Neal on for the rest of her life. I will be livid if that thing is taken off or disappears somehow and if JMo was the one who wanted to do the shoelace thing, I can see her making sure the necklace stays part of Emma’s world too.

I would love for the pendant to have more meaning in a future story but I no longer trust A&E’s vision for anything with this show, so it wouldn’t surprise me if it’s just seen being worn by Emma again like it was back in S1 and I’m okay with that because it means that Emma never forgets Neal. I want that part of him to always be with her because at the rate A&E are going, she’ll probably sell the car, get rid of the dreamcatcher, and Henry will never gets his memories back so that necklace will literally be all she has from Neal. *bitter, party of one, your table is ready* 🙁

BTW-I’m realizing today that I have had HORRIBLE luck with my TV shows lately. Scandal killed someone off two shows ago, Wonderland killed off Ana and Cyrus (both of which they better fix this week), Once killed off Neal, and then last night, HIMYM actually killed off the freaking Mother which honked me off and I wasn’t even a regular watcher of that show! Tomorrow night Revolution is supposedly killing off someone (with my luck it will be Elizabeth Mitchell’s character because two of my favorite actors getting killed off their respective shows in the same week is how my TV viewing apparently goes now) and who knows what happens with Wonderland on Thursday. I think someone is supposed to be dying again on Nashville soon so YAY that everyone apparently thinks death is entertaining now. Thank goodness Chicago Fire is airing a repeat tonight so I don’t have to worry about traumatizing stories there for another week (that show has an element of danger in it all the time though so shocks aren’t as shocking for me there). I really need happy TV for the rest of this week!! 🙁

I have a dentist appointment this afternoon. Somehow, getting my teeth scraped and/or drilled today makes sense with how my week has been going emotionally. 😮

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Screw them. We know that Nealfire was always a hero and the fact that others didn’t see that until it was too late tells us more about how they watch the show than anything else. I know what I saw with his story and I saw a heroic guy right up until the end and even though they screwed up a lot of things in this last episode, I will never forget what all he did for the other people in his life or the love he shared with Emma. I’m still a little teary today about things but I think I’m slowly graduating into the jaded and angry phase of my feelings now. I’m becoming very MEH about anything related to the show and the more Adam tweets about things or A&E do interviews, the more MEH I’m becoming about Once because I don’t feel like they truly understand or watch their own show. 🙁 (BTW-I can totally see how they could have created a loophole or two to bring Neal back but unless that purpose is for him to finally see Henry, I don’t know how interested I would be in seeing that because it would just feel false after all the crap they’ve put us through since Sunday night.)

@Phee – LOVED your comments in that other thread (although they almost made me cry at work, LOL) and I agree with you. This show has lost it’s way and the hope that they’re always preaching about just isn’t there anymore. What happened to those guys? Did they get too many toys out of the box? Did they really think that killing someone as pivotal as Nealfire would be beneficial to their whole theme of hope?! Ugh. They should stop talking at this point because no one believes anything they say anymore. Not surprised at all that the TV Guide poll has almost all Jeers in it for this episode. I haven’t found many people who are all that happy about how this all happened the other night. 🙁

Random: I started watching Terriers last night and HOLY CRAP, it really is awesome!! I only got to watch the pilot because I didn’t have time to watch more but it was fantastic and truly lets MRJ and his buddy Donal shine together. They’re pretty hilarious overall but also have really sweet sides to their characters. I can see why so many people still love this show after four years of it being gone. I think it’s a treasure and like nothing else on TV right now. I wish they would bring it back or at least do a movie so I could look forward to more Hank and Britt! 😀 And watching this show made me feel a lot better about MRJ leaving Once. Mikey is SO talented and he should have his pick of ANYTHING he wants project wise so hopefully we hear more about his career soon. I was going to binge watch this show but now I want to just savor it and watch it episode by episode. Definitely recommend that you guys check it out! Mikey is so adorkable in parts of it that I couldn’t help smiling like a doofus at times last night, LOL 😉

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I need to head to bed soon but I just wanted to express my thanks to you guys  too for being here these last 26+ hours. It’s definitely been rough going for me too, more so today than last night, but knowing I have friends here who care about me and who feel the same helps a LOT. I adore all of you and I will continue to be here for support, love, and healing while we all keep trying to move past this crap. *HUGS*

I have been either in tears or near tears all day, I couldn’t tell you what I did at work today, I didn’t finish a single meal this entire day (my appetite was non existent all day), and I still feel like I just lost a friend in a totally unexpected and horrific way. I hate sad stories in general so this one is just tearing me up. I know what loss feels like but this one hits me on a lot of levels: My dad was around for a while when I was growing up but then he just disappeared from my life and I have no relationship with him now. I have lost three grandparents and an uncle since I’ve been an adult and all of them were hard for me. I also have several close friends who’ve lost parents (and who were like second parents to me including my best friend who lost her mom six months before my friend’s wedding). I hate funerals with a huge passion because I just cry over everything being the emotional basket case I tend to be. I know what pain feels like so when I get attached to characters on a TV show, it’s usually because I can relate to their pains and want badly for them to be happy. It gives me hope that I can be happy about a lot of things myself someday. You can imagine how rough it feels when one of those characters that you can identify with, who feels real and human to you, doesn’t get a happy ending or even an awesome STORY for his death. It’s just brutal and the fact that Adam was making light of it earlier just burned me up. The DAY AFTER THE TRAGEDY is not an appropriate time to make light of something sad happening on your show. I just don’t know what to think anymore. I know I plan to stay here and be with you guys but after Sunday’s episode, which I feel like I need to watch so I can get my full closure, I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’ll take it week by week at this point. 😥

RG-I hate that people were cruel to you today. You are a treasure and I count you as one of my dearest friends. If anyone else says something like that to you, please let me know so I can go kick some behind for you. That is NOT COOL. 🙁

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow afternoon. Somehow that seems appropriate that I’m going to get my teeth scraped and prodded after the last two days! I also shouldn’t have watched the HIMYM finale tonight because that did nothing to improve my emotional stress. 🙁

Love you all so much. I hope this post makes sense. I have no clue at this point! Let’s keep hanging together and maybe the pain will stop hurting quite so much after a little time to heal. I’m always going to miss Neal but I’m hoping I might be able to get through a day at work without crying sometime this week. I’m not counting on it but I am hoping for it. Good night friends. *HUGS*

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I have to go home from work now but I’ll be back later. That TV Guide article got me upset all over again even though there really wasn’t anything new in it. Those two trolls have royally screwed up their own show. Congrats guys on the massive error. 😥

 

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I couldn’t help it…I left a comment on the TV Line article. I’ll probably get ripped to shreds but I don’t even care. 🙁

It might have been a bold choice but that doesn’t mean I have to like it. It was poorly written, totally OOC for Neal, a very badly hidden secret, and a total cop out for the show (the acting barely saved it for me). So life sucks and then you die? That’s the message of this show?! I thought it was about love, family, and happy endings. I guess you only get that if you’re a villain. I could have accepted Neal’s death if the story made sense (like him actually doing something brave to save his son or Emma which would have been actually in character) but that episode was one big WTH for me in so many ways. That said, MRJ is a total class act and I have SO much respect for him. I didn’t know much about him until he came to Once and now I’m a total fangirl who can’t wait to find out what project he’s going to be doing next. I hope another show snaps him up right away so he’s back on my TV again soon. Thanks for everything Michael and BOO to the writers for a poor choice and a badly written story. =(

 

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TV Line is picking up this story from Mikey’s messages with the byline that Matt’s still trying to get answers to some burning questions so we should come back and check again. Here’s the link in case you want to read it:

http://tvline.com/2014/03/31/once-upon-a-time-neal-dies-michael-raymond-james-burning-questions/

 

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Some awesome show that I actually would want to watch better snap him up right away so he’s back on my TV and in a role where they actually appreciate and use his fantastic talents. I’m with RG on this one….I think Adam called up MRJ and told him to talk to the fans so he wouldn’t have to do it himself. Notice how fast Adam was around when Mikey started his series of tweets. Doesn’t take away the awesomeness that is MRJ and his wonderful comments but it does make me *rolleyes* over Adam. Whatever troll. 🙁

 

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