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I just tweeted Adam and MRJ, politely expressing my sadness. I’m sure they’re not going to respond but I felt the need to get it out. I was trying to be as polite as possible….

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Changing my avatar just to give Neal a candlelight vigil… 🙁

WHY WHY WHY!!!! Pounds fists….

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I can’t even concentrate on what I’m doing now…I feel like I need a day to just absorb everything.

I don’t even feel like going to work tomorrow…no joke

I’m in serious denial that MRJ is gone from this show for good… I can’t accept it. I guess I’m in denial mode right now…

And I feel like I’ve given this show way too many chances in turning it around. There was just too many missed opportunities…too many plot devices that wreck the story and no natural progression for character development. I just feel so done with this show. I had hope in Neal, now that he’s gone what’s there to hope for? What kind of message are they sending across in upcoming episodes?

I want to hear A&E to talk about this episode. I want their full story. I want to know what really went down. If MRJ really wanted to leave I’ll accept it and maybe continue to catch it now and again. I won’t accept this rushed story and have it be it for Neal. I’m in anger mode and I want answers!

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I just want us all to get together in person.

I would love that too…All I can do is hug the computer screen right now…. 🙁

But it’s good to talk it out with fellow SFers who understand. I mean I feel silly since it’s a TV show but damn I just feel like my loved one just died for real… it hurts…

This is our group therapy session right now. It’s just nice to know I can talk with you guys about it. *sigh*

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Two things I did love was when Neal took out the swan pendent and held onto it. That was my first phase of bursting into tears.

The second was Neal and Emma chatting so casually with each other. Joking, laughing, and Emma giving an actual legit smile at him. Only Neal brought that out in her. And I’m always gonna hold onto them being true loves.

Everything else was thrown in your face as “Life sucks” get over it.

OUAT crime against the fandom:
Neal never got to be with his son

Neal’s body was just left there on the ground, cold and dead. As if we didn’t feel enough pain.

🙁 This is going to be the worst week ever….

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I do really want to keep this thread. I’m too scared to go to any other sites right now. And I still feel like I need to let it out. You guys have been so great and supportive. Right now it’s as if my heart was ripped out from me.

The more I think about it the more I’m just too angry for words.

They didn’t even get a chance to give Neal and proper resolution at least. It’s was just so rushed. The 3 months waiting was for this??? UGH!

I’m not sure how MRJ can just want to leave so fast, when they made him a regular this season. I would’ve thought that they would utilize him until the season was over.

I don’t know how many times I said this but I’m still shaking from anger and sadness. I know it’s fictional but this is the most a tv show has effected me and not in a good way.

Because of the indecency of how Neal’s character was treated. Shipping aside. The worst crime they made was not having him see Henry before he died. I didn’t think the show would go there but it did. And I just can’t believe it. A father that wanted to be in his son’s life so badly never got to. Life sucks as it is, I don’t need another show to tell me it sucks even more…

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Can anyone point to me Matt’s article???

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I’m just shaking right now. I can barely get the words out.

I’m still crying…I guess it’s over…they’ve gone ahead and done it.

I don’t think I can forgive A&E for this ever. I don’t think I can stomach watching another OUAT episode because I’m so angry at the way they handled it.

I cried when he pulled out the SF pendent. His true love talisman. He kept it with him always.

I cried when his died in Emma’s arms clutching onto Rumple’s hand. And as I’m typing this now I’m crying… 🙁

 

I can’t believe they just short changed us at so much potential his character could’ve brought

 

BUT WHAT I’M MOST ANGRY ABOUT

Is that he never got to see Henry again. And he died while his own son didn’t remember him as the good man that his was that took his out for pizza and taught his how to sword fight.

I don’t think I can ever recover from this, I don’t even think I can re-watch it either.

 

I guess MRJ did want to leave???? I don’t really blame him since he’s suffered harassment from the fandom more then any other actor. That I just can’t forgive.

 

I’m not sure what to do now….my enthusiasm is pretty much gone. I might pop into the forums and visit you guys but I don’t know…

I still want to keep this thread going since I’ve chatted with so many lovely people here. I hate to let that go. I said to myself I would go down with this ship until the very end.

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I need a moment right now….

The first time I cried so hard my eyes are red on an OUAT episode….as if someone I loved just died…. just…UGH!!!!  🙁

 

I don’t think I can stomach watching the rest of the season now….

I’ll be back in a moment to talk it out, cause I really need that right now….

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Not gonna lie, I’m seriously crying with every Neal scene. Swan necklace, Henry’s memories…  🙁

I didn’t read the spoilers but I guess it’s not gonna go well in the end…

*I’m shaking right now…*

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